Power in your tongue.

“The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.”

~ 
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭18:21‬ ‭NIV‬‬

There is power in your tongue! There is power in what you speak! Power of death and life! Your tongue is either birthing hope, faith, dreams, passion, life, or killing it all with just one word. For what you speak is what you thought and have felt within. Your tongue exercises what your mind and heart are feeling.

 

It’s scary to know that your tongue is the exact reason to where you are standing at this moment in life. I say scary because while you are busy blaming everyone about your life, you failed to noticed that the biggest enemy has always been yourself! Yes everyone will always have an opinion over your life, but you choose who to listen to. You choose what to believe. You choose how you will reply to their thoughts about you. Those replies could be a step forward in the right direction or a step backwards. Remember that your tongue exercises what your mind and heart have already agreed to believe. Your tongue (your words) are the finishing touches to make your feelings into reality.

There was a time where because of my tongue, my hurting became more unbearable. It has become so common in these times to judge and approve negativity, then to try to fix the bad into good. If I were to count how many times negativity was fed into my ears, I will say that there is no number out there that can sum up the numbers. It’s the horrible truth. However the negativity only affected me when I agreed to what was said. When I used my tongue to question and say the exact same thing that others were saying about me. The hurting was unbearable because it was myself speaking in agreement over my life. I believed what was said about me. Now my existence was moving according to the negativity that was birthed into my life, instead of my existence being steadfast to what God has promised over my life.

 What I’m trying to say with this is that the enemy over your life knows that if you speak it, you believe it. He rather you be so full with negativity that when you speak to someone else negativity will come pouring out naturally. A loose tongue could destroy faster its surroundings than a silent thought. I remember when I was in elementary, my teachers will always repeat, “ If you can’t say anything nice, don’t speak”. Its become a style to have a quick mouth than an active ear. There are many moments in life that if we would have just been quiet, we would have heard the voice of who is really speaking. In Proverbs 10:19 it shares with us, how too much talking can lead to sin. Sin is anything negative, anything that doesn’t please God. If your too busy talking, you will get caught up on fighting the wrong fight. You won’t be able to hear who’s really speaking to you. You won’t be able to react quick and walk away.

The same way the tongue has power to kill, it also has power to give life. I remember the first time I decided to speak positivity over my life. Although my words didn’t physically match what was seen, it made it into my reality. The more I spoke good things, the more my body began to feel good. My mind began to transform and my heart was able to be at peace. I knew that if I spoke what I wanted to see, one day soon I will see what I spoke. My situations or any situation that came up didn’t feel how I remembered it to feel. Not that it wasn’t just as bad as the last situation, but now my tongue became a weapon for speaking life into the darkness. When it became too hard for me to handle, I was able to find peace in leaving it in God’s hands. I was able to listen and control my loose mouth. This gave me the choice to walk away from the negativity, than to fight against it.

“Those who love it will eat its fruits.” For every positive word you speak, a seed is planted. It could be for yourself or someone else. The more positivity you speak, the more that seed gets watered. Eventually that seed will blossom into a strong faith, family, marriage, ministry, church, and dreams. Most importantly when you speak and repeat the promises that God has made you, everything will change. When the seed blossoms, what grew was your trust in God. For you trusted and believed what He placed in your tongue to say, that it motived you to speak it out loud. You had faith! You believed! In Mark 11:24 the Lord pleads that his children may believe what we are praying and stop doubting. Believe what you speak! Speak the words of God and not the words of the world.

Let’s be wise enough to know when to speak and when to listen. It’s ok to disagree, but it’s not ok to entertain the disagreement. Love yourself enough to speak good every time your mouth opens!

Repeat this prayer;

“God I thank you for Your wisdom, for Your wisdom is what sustains me. I thank you for speaking promises and faith over my life. I thank you for the things that I have under control, and for those things I have no control of. I thank you for being the anchor of my soul, to lean on when negativity wants to hover over my life. I thank you for the power of the tongue. For the authority you give me when I speak in Your name. I ask you from the bottom of my heart may my tongue speak knowing who it’s owner is. May any negative thought that is placed in my mind and heart be canceled in Your precious name. May you be in full control over my soul. May You guide me always in your truth and light. May I be at peace knowing that You loving me and being pleased with me, is more than enough to keep fighting the good fight. May you forgive me for speaking negativity over my life and others. May You forgive me for thinking and feeling negative things toward myself and others. May I always remember that love covers a multitude of sin. That we were created from love to give love in return. May we speak things that are pleasant to Your ears. I thank you for being the best teacher I can ever learn from. Thank you for Your grace and mercy. Amen.”

God bless you all,

Victoria 💛

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Strong in my weakness…



“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.” ~ 2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9-10

‬ ‭I remember when I wasn’t a Christian how narrow my thoughts about this walk was. I honestly believed that people became a Christian by pressing this invisible reset button. It was so easy to see the obvious but not to understand it. It was so easy to say that they ran to Christianity because they had no one else to run to. In other words it was too easy to judge, yet so difficult to understand. Yet understanding something unknown is easier to accomplish when your willing to understand it. For many years I just didn’t want to understand the why, but always knew the “who” they were following.

Fast forward to the present I will be lying if I told you that since I pressed that reset button in my life, that it’s been easier. There has been many low points in my life even after I said yes to Jesus Christ being my savior. Within those low moments anger was a familiar emotion. I couldn’t fathom the reason I was still hitting rock bottom when I served a God who has the power to prevent such life events. Many times I thought that my decision to follow Christ provoked me to fall even more than when I didn’t have Him as the center of my life. Many times that anger cause me to separate myself from Him. I’m grateful now for His grace and love for me. For too many times I walked away from Him, but never once has He walked away from me.

During these low moments in my life I felt just like everyone else, who had struggled in life. I felt shame, depression, pain, suffocated, confusion, belittled, low self esteem, and weak. There’s nothing worse than having everyone against you and being your worse enemy as while. All these situations and emotions caused me to feel such a high level of weakness. A weakness that I grew to despise. A weakness that didn’t allow me to sleep at night yet had me sleeping all day (insomnia). It took away my hunger and made me physically sick, every time I will force myself to eat. It caused me to isolate myself because having to be around people was too much to handle. Having to repeat myself numerous times caused me to have to relive everything I was trying so hard to forget.

Maybe for many people looking from the outside my situation didn’t seem like a huge deal. This is the beauty of processes though, no one has the power to judge it and tell you your wrong. It’s “your process” for a reason. Only God can stop it, continue it, speed it up, or slow it down. It’s hard to remember this at the moment because control is the last thing we have when we are living out these moments. However remember who has the final say over everything in your life. God has the final word. He’s the one you will need to explain yourself to and no one else.

The most beautiful lesson I learned in every process is how strong He made me throughout my weakness. I know when people think of strong they picture Wonder Woman but that is wrong in so many ways. Being strong could be forcing yourself to get up today and not sleep in. It could be saying one positive thing about your life or situation. It could be smiling when you believe you have no reason to. Being strong is taking that one step forward that seemed impossible the day before. That’s a milestone. That’s a huge reason to rejoice. That’s God showing you His grace upon your life. Celebrate that milestone !! Give thanks for that one step you took. That one step can change everything for the better.

The best part of these moments when I saw myself weak was being able to feel God closer to me. In Psalm 34:18 the Lord remains us that He is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are weak in the spirit. Many times in our lowest we crave for true affection. That one person who can just come from nowhere and change everything around. That one person who can save us from ourselves. We get caught up on finding that physical person, that we forget that there’s a God who is dying to save us from all of our devastation.

It all made sense to me one day! The second I saw my weakness as a step forward, and not a step backwards. It was in that moment I was ok feeling like I had no control and even more ok knowing that God will solve all these problems. The strength that the Lord could provide no human walking the earth could provide. The weakness that all humans experience and see; is the same weakness that the Lord takes to plant a new seed of blessings in your life!

There is strength in the weak !

Repeat out loud this prayer if you feel the need to!

“Lord here I am broken and weak. I stand in front of you the same way you see me, as myself. I acknowledge that you are the Lord of all lords and King of all Kings. I know everything you allow has a greater meaning than my temporary emotions. I believe that I must walk through this process to reach closer to all the plans you have for me. I don’t understand but I know I’m in your hands. I know where I stand. Help me remain steadfast and find comfort in Your word. If this is Your will then align and finish what You have started in me. I know Your a father who keeps His promise. Lover of my soul keep staying with me and molding me to Your perfect image. In Your name I find strength, in Your name I can resist the enemy. In Your name everything that is not from You must flee. Thank you Father. Amen.”

Blessings,

Victoria ❤️

Building under Construction

“Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build my house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored,” says the LORD. “You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?” declares the LORD Almighty. “Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with your own house.” ~ Haggai‬ ‭1:8-9‬ ‭NIV‬‬

For so long I was in denial, for way too long. I was always in a search to find. To find what exactly I’m not sure. But nothing was ever enough for me; nothing! From the outside looking in many thought my life was all together, and for the most part it was! I had a loving family and most importantly their support in almost everything I desired. However even that wasn’t enough for me. I was always very ambition from such a young age to be something that will leave an impact in someone else’s life. I couldn’t explain how that made me feel. However even that at one point wasn’t enough. Nothing was good enough.

You might be thinking, “Ok stuck up much”. I even thought that about myself, but it wasn’t that. I was in denial of the emptiness I felt inside, before I even knew what the word meant. I will try to fill myself with things that I believed will make me feel good. Things that will make me love myself to the point that it felt good to be able to look at myself. The more I tried, the more empty I felt. Along with that every other question lingered in my mind. Why am I here? Why do I feel this way? Why can’t someone see me for me? How do I explain this feeling? How can I ask for help without someone labeling some mental health issue? I wasn’t crazy, but I never felt normal. What is normal? The thoughts haunted me and the deeper I got in trying to fix myself. The deeper I got the more lost I felt. The more I reached out for help, the more I lost my voice. I was completely lost. So I thought…

There was this one time where life just threw me a hardball right in my life! I felt suffocated, my worth was at its lowest basically nonexistence. It was the first time where I cried out loud to God. It wasn’t forced, no one was looking at me, no one told me how to do it. The first tear that came down my cheek, was the first time I felt God healing me from the inside out. I always heard of restoration but it’s different when it hits you personally. Tears were just coming down my race faster than I can catch them. There was a point where I gave up trying to catch these tears and just felt the need to dance. I danced my pain, my anger, my desperation, my need, my heart. I couldn’t find the words to explain to God what I was feeling but I knew that night that He saw me and understood everything. The load of the tears falling, was so loud that my spirit heard it echo repeatedly. My heart couldn’t help but run to God as fast as it did.

I know I’m not the only person who has ever felt this feeling and not be able to explain it. That’s where the beauty is. That moment that you feel a shift and can’t help but to move with it; yet not understand it. God is a god of mystery! That night where I was lost of words He knew that it was the moment where He was able to speak to me and I was able to hear Him. There was no other voice but His speaking. That was the first time I gave God my whole heart.

My whole heart was now in His hands, and in need of a new home. I couldn’t live in the same body that caused such damage to my heart emotionally. You see when we take that step with God, we need to do it completely. I know many things come to mind such as “can I handle this”? “What am I going to get out of it”? And the biggest thing; loving someone you have never known or can’t see. The unknown is scary! But living knowing and feeling as a trespasser is even more scary. Everything clicked when I depended 100% on God. My heart was able to habitat in its new home ( my new body). My old self was no longer overpowering me, because my soul found a reason to seek. My soul was able to feel united with the heart it was given, and the mind that it was given.

We get caught up always looking for something that we miss all the signs, all the caution signs that God is holding up! But there is where we see HIS GRACE! Those moments where we hit rock bottom and He’s there ready to pick us up and not hold out a score card of our fails. Although we get caught up in life and our own thoughts, He is still working to fix the mess that we have yet to know we’re getting ourselves into. While we ruin our own home (body), He is preparing our new home. While we wander lost, He is mapping how we are going to get to Him. While we cry out in desperation, He is opening His hands and giving. While we fall, He is there making sure that the fall doesn’t kill us. While we fill empty, He is getting ready to fill us up. While we fight to know why us, why now, He is clearly things for we could see that every storm has an end. While we are breathing, He is moving constantly in our favor! He is always doing even if we can’t see it in the moment.

There is transformation in the Lord. There are new beginning in the Lord. There is a new home in the Lord. There is a new you in Lord. There is always a refresh button on every morning we wake. There will always be something new when we are with the Lord. Your ruin home got ruin when you got too busy to see and hear God. Slow down and breathe for a second and hear.