Who is your expert?

A doctor.

A psychologist.

A counselor.

A teacher.

A pastor.

A sister.

A brother.

A parent.

A friend.

A boss.

Have you ever considered God ?

We rush to conclusions.

We rush to fix things.

We rush to speak.

We rush to ignore.

We rush for help.

We rush to see.

We rush to feelings.

We rush to denial.

We rush.

We rush.

We rush.

What will happen if we slowed down for a second?

Would we hear something new ?

Would we see something new ?

Would we feel something new?

Would we react different?

Would we speak different?

Would we think different?

Now I know we have many experts in this world, but why don’t we ever consider God?

Out of all the experts I know, He is the only one who understands us without speaking.

Who hears our tears, and gives it meaning.

Who sees us and covers us.

Who gives when we didn’t know we were lacking.

Who heals without declaring us sick.

Who gets involved before we could scream a S.O.S.

Who leaves signs all around, to let us know He is near.

Who embraces us, when we don’t know who we are.

Who makes our past, a bridge for a new one.

He is all of these things and more.

How can we not consider Him thee expert!

I don’t know you is your expert…

But mines is the one…

Who created me before times.

Who died for me to buy me out of a life of, captivity and condemnation.

And as if He has done enough for me.

The one who is relentless in His purse to love me and keep me as His daughter.

My father is my expert.

Victoria 💛

Clarity (Spoken word)

So many shades of colors.

So many shades of situations.

So many reasons for truth.

So many things just to protect, you from you.

Fields of thoughts.

Fields of plans.

Fields of hope.

Fields of plots.

Fields with no ending.

Fields with no beginnings.

You see…

There’s so many things of everything.

Lord, I just want to see, what you see.

Where does hope overflow like a well?

When does faith arise ?

What mountain do we tell to move ?

Why does sacrifice and obedience, always feel like a tie?

How do we active a Paul and Silas during these times?

Your coming back for ONE CHURCH.

One bride.

One vision.

So why so many dominations and religions?

Why so many different doctrines as options?

Why so many fights to covert someone to you ?

Your the prince of peace.

Your the one that transforms.

Your the one that touches the hearts.

Your the one that removes the blinds from our eyes.

Your the one that called us first.

Your the one that chose us before we were born.

Shouldn’t speaking about you be the important seed?

Shouldn’t the fruits of the spirit be what convinces people of the God that we seek?

Why do people try so hard ?

Isn’t our testimony enough and the evidence of who we serve ?

Why is there so much war on what is a good or bad believer ?

How do people measure and with what power ?

Aren’t you the judge of all judges ?

Does this world and everyone in it, not understand ?

Your the only one that has control.

Lord, I just want to see, what you see.

Please give this world some clarity.

~ Victoria 🙏🏼

When your best doesn’t feel enough…

Wow this year has definitely been 20/20 ! We have been forced to truly see things and not just walk around oblivious. The unfortunate has been in our view. Everywhere we turn we are faced with something that has just shaken us to our core. The impact of what we have been witnessing probably has been sugarcoated with “this if life” statements. However in those nights when sleep has been hard to find, all that rushes to our minds is…how can I help ? What can I do? I’m seeing but am I really? What I’m I missing? I’m I giving my best to everything God is expecting from me in this season? Our nights have been hitting us like a flood, where we are just trying to stay above water. A flood where currents are pulling every way possible, while our spirit stays focused on above !

Let’s talk about that hovering feeling. That feeling of “I’m giving my best and it’s still not enough”. The one that steals our thoughts and chains it to ideas that are a burden. Those difficult questions that hit an area in us. Why do I feel so inadequate? Why I’m not moving forward? Why does nothing feel like enough?

I know this season I’m not the only one battling theses horrible thoughts. However let me bring some light to these dark moments!

You are enough! You will always be enough! Jesus Christ didn’t die for someone who isn’t worthy or enough ! He died for someone who is WORTHY AND ENOUGH! We didn’t deserve it nor can comprehend it but it’s a done deal! Our Lord and Savior died for us because he saw something we couldn’t within ourselves. Feelings of inadequacy? Rebuke those and tell yourself what the Lord told us ! “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; ~ 1 Peter 2:9”. You were chosen !!! So it doesn’t matter what the enemy is showing you because you were chosen. Since you were chosen, that means the Lord’s favor and grace is upon your life ! He will equip you in every area, in his own way.

Just a reminder: Just because we have God doesn’t mean we won’t go through things in this world. Take heart because the Lord has also overcome this world, so we could too! Bad days are the worse but their not the end of anything! If anything their the beginning of something new! A new perspective, a new start to healing an area, a new opportunity to reach for help, a new opportunity to run closer to God, a new opportunity to surrender, and a new opportunity to give up control and hand it over to the Lord!

Peace my brothers and sisters !

Take one day at a time !

Victoria 💛

Contentment

In Timothy, contentment is a huge common theme. Once you have reached a level of contentment putting expectations on people becomes less. You realize then, only God can meet your expectation in the form you are expecting it to be revealed. The word also reminds us how much of a fallen race we are and that man fail us daily. That’s something we forget to remember or apply to our hearts the moment, love seems to be showed indifferent to what we are use to.

The word also reminds us how we are crucified along with Christ. The crudifition is an agonizing thing, there is no way to avoid the pain but the verse reminds us that we are crucified with Christ. That being said, Christ is enduring it all with us and we are not alone during the processes. Also in Romans it’s mentioned how our spirit is willing but our flesh is weak. That is our constant battle as Christians, having to kill our personal desires for God will can prevail instead.

I feel like these 4 things are spoken in great detail in the Bible to protect our hearts. These are 4 very broad topics that seem to always mark us because we forget that no one can give you what God can. Humans fail us every time because every human has a constant battle between they spirit and flesh. Were meant to feel their failure toward us for we can remember the one who never does; God. The pain of human failure however is meant to be felt just like the crucifixion. Just how Christ endured the crucifixion we must endure it as well. We should channel the pain or hurt for a greater cause and not to victimize or justify, how we lack giving it all to God.

I think it’s hard for majority of us because God has put us in a position where the truth has been exposed and now we are called to break generational curses. We are rebuilding in our life a new foundation that no one prior really established or paved the way for us to follow in. So it’s a tiring thought having to give it our all to Christ because we feel like life already took so much from us. We enter in a state of wanting to receive because it feels like our whole existence has been just giving and no one is giving back. Then we need to get real with ourselves and ask how are we getting filled. We know pouring into others very well but getting filling we don’t. In order for us to get filled we must let our guard down and get vulnerable because intimacy could only be created when everything is exposed on the table with no reservation. If you lack contentment is because your life has lacked intimacy with the Lord.

~Victoria 💛

Extending an olive branch 🕊

I won’t pretend that I understand or know the pain that you are holding within.

I won’t try to align our suffering to see if it’s rooted equally.

I won’t even try to comprehend to then sugar coat it with a beautiful bible phrase.

I won’t do nothing because I can’t…

But…

I will extend an olive branch.

I will extend an area where your allow to feel.

I will extend a space that no one will steal.

I will extend an arm and truly let you hold on.

I will extend my legs and walk miles with you or to where you are.

I will extend my heart and shelter what you lost grip of.

I will extend my mind and channel in everything your emotions left you blindside to.

I will do all this for I know this is where the gospel really steps into play.

But…

I’m only human, so I’m limit on how far I can get.

However I can intercede and provoke the dove to be set free.

That it may return with a new opportunity of reconciliation and restoration.

That it may return back with a sign that there will be life after this.

That it may return back with a sign that every seed that was drop has taken root and it’s just in a process of growing.

That it may return in hopes that a new direction will take place.

That it may return as a light, that all of this agony was just to fulfill a promise.

That it may return with a sign of a new covenant.

I pray that the dove comes back with an olive leaf in its beak.

I pray that the Holy Spirit will be poured out like how it happened to Jesus.

I pray that all of God’s children arise and take a stand.

I pray that the church sees this is something we need to take control of because politics can’t.

The legislation could put laws into place but the children of God can declare the blood of Jesus to go rushing into those stone hearts.

The legislation can present things in court but only God can put into place an order that no man can break.

The legislation can pretend to care but the Holy Spirit can bring conviction to every soul.

The legislation can try to fix all this mess but only God can cleanse the land and leave no trace of evidence.

The legislation can try everything but in the end it will still need God to step in.

There is a flood of anger, confusion, hurt, betrayal, abuse, injustice, sadness, depression, separation, division, numbness, grief, blood and tears flooding our atmosphere.

It’s been arising overtime.

But until the people don’t understand that we must take every step under the instructions of God, all things will continue to be wiped away.

From the roots things will be killed off and only those who obeyed will stick around to see a new place.

Let’s see pass the storm…

I hear and feel your trouble thoughts.

I know it must be difficult to turn off what has been influencing your emotions.

I understand that having proper facts and knowledge seems the best route to go.

I know the percentage of people asking “what should we do”, are higher than the “I might have a clue”.

I hear your moving lips and your silent ones.

I feel your struggle to go to bed every night because the “what if’s” are heavy on your soul.

I know you are trying to pray but finding the words have been hard.

I know your trying to smile through all of this, but yet have found comfort that your sad face is the common thread, everywhere you go.

I know things at home are getting tight.

I know it seems like each minute feels more like a miracle.

I know your strength is becoming weaker.

I know that we are walking under a huge cloud of mystery.

I know this is much bigger that me or you.

BUT ASIDE FROM ALL THIS I KNOW OUR GOD IS WITH US!

I know He promised that he will never abandon us.

He warned us that WE WILL PASS THROUGH AFFLICTIONS, but we must take heart.

He promised that ALL THINGS WILL WORK TOGETHER FOR OUR GOOD, even the parts we don’t understand.

I know He is our JEHOVAH RAPHA, OUR HEALER!

I know He is our JEHOVAH JIREH, OUR PROVIDER!

I know He is our JEHOVAH NISSI, OUR BANNER!

I know He is our EL SHADDAI, OUR GOD ALMIGHTY!

I know He is our ELOHIM, GOD OF POWER AND MIGHT!

I know He is our EL ROI, THE STRONG ONE THAT SEES!

I know He is our JEHOVAH SHAMMAH, OUR GOD IS HERE AND PRESENT.

THESE FACTS ARE THE PERMANENT ONES I KNOW, the other facts are temporary ones!

Things come and go.

Seasons are changing constantly.

News are changing constantly.

People are changing constantly.

Our hope is changing constantly.

Our strength is changing constantly.

Everything is constantly changing!

BUT MY LORD IS THE SAME YESTERDAY, TODAY, AND TOMORROW!

Take courage and hold on, don’t you dare let go now!

OUR GOD IS A WAY MAKER!

HE’S ABOUT TO MAKE A WAY IN ALL THE AREAS MAN COULDN’T DO!

FOR IT’S NOT THROUGH OUR MIGHT OR STRENGTH BUT BY HIS SPIRIT, SAID THE LORD!

PUT YOUR PROPER ARMOR ON!

DON’T FORGET YOUR HELMET OF SALVATION!

DON’T FORGET YOUR BREASTPLATE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS!

DON’T FORGET YOUR BELT OF TRUTH!

DON’T FORGET YOUR YOUR FEET PREPARED WITH THE GOSPEL OF PEACE!

DON’T FORGET YOUR SHIELD OF FAITH!

And DON’T FORGET YOUR SWORD OF THE SPIRIT!

Switch your “ I knows and what if’s “ to true facts that are unchangeable!

LET’S FINALLY SEE PASS THIS STORM !

What has love meant to you in the past and what does it mean to you now?

Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Ephesians 5:1 (The Message)

This week I began to question myself on, what love meant to me prior to this quarantine and what does it mean to me now. After some hard thinking it came down to two answers. Number one is that those that I love, I really love. How do I know this? The sense of need to see them during these social distance times. I have become accustomed to their presences. What does that have to do with love ? It helped me put into perspective that I truly enjoy having the people that I have in my life. It has helped me see that I will surely dread the day where I could no longer see them. It has help me care, love, enjoy, invest, and cherish them more deeper.

Now the second thing that popped up was, how distance I am from those I did see daily before all of this chaos. It’s horrible to admit because as a Christian you are called to be near and not far. Especially with those you saw daily. But and this is a big but …… if you can relate with me, I have some encouraging words to share. There is still time and you can fix what has been hindering you to reach out more. I know it might take some time and work. But that two things we have in this season, time and time to work with what God has called us to do!

We are born to follow in Jesus footsteps. Each one of us that are still alive and called to lean on God and his understanding. To seek wisdom from Him when we are lacking in this area. Jesus was neat to anyone who reached to him. He didn’t care what relationship they had prior. He was servicing everyone equally and that includes in relationships. I like to believe that Jesus was able to be his true self because he knew that he was called to serve while he was physically walking earth. There are many stories in the Bible where it wasn’t so easy for him to keep servicing but the only thing that came out of his mouth and into his mind was the will of his father.

What’s the point of loving those when they are easy to love ? Does that help us mature spiritually? Is there a bigger treasure to love those who seem impossible to love ? Are they impossible to love because they provoke us to grow in an area that we don’t want to face? Are they impossible to love because they remind you of all your past mistakes? Have you ever thought that maybe the demand to love your neighbor is written in the Bible because it’s very much possible to do ? If it helps, the next time you find it hard to love someone, remember that at one time in your life, you were difficult to love back ! If God could love us in every moment than we should love in every moment.

Love covers a multitude of sins!

Victoria 💛

“Who touched me?” Jesus asked.”

“Who touched me?” Jesus asked.”
How can it be that in a mist of a crowded place an act of desperation left you impacted.
Oh Lord you said my faith has healed me.
Look at my trembling self as I fall apart in your presence freely.
You see I hungered and thirst for your almighty power to flee this flood of blood.
It’s been years of me physically out pouring but…
Just a touch of the border of your mantle.
Every fragile piece of me untangled.
I fell.
I broke.
I weakened.
No longer drained.
No longer leaking.
No longer needing.
The power of your touch became my open door to healing.
Now you see Lord why I fell to your feet.
I was damaged.
I was ruined.
I was dying internally.
I ran through this crowd and secretly reached to you.
You didn’t see me but you felt power withdrew.
Immediately you had to ask who, yet you knew it was me who pursued.
A touch.
A miracle.
A move.
You said it was my faith.
I believe it was because you are my father.
For you knew me without knowing me and called me “daughter”.
I knew I had to run to where you were.
But you knew this act was the step that caused my agony to out run.

Now I walked under calmness.
Now I walk under joy.
Now I walk under a weightless self.
Now I know how true my father’s words were to me.
“Then he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.”
Now I knew the peace I was under no longer had room for any other disease.